Oh shit! It's my Los Angeles-iversary!

Let's start here! On every August 26th since 2015, have felt like a squished bug and in a terribly melancholy mood and by the end of the day had a full on mental breakdown in my car crying, only to realize that "Oh shit! It's my Los Angeles-iversary!".

I made it. I'm doing it. I'm living, surviving, and continually trying to be thriving.

Yes a whole 5 years in the city of angels- currently without my sister Angel, without my once "Twisted Sister" Sarah, and without my star on the Hollywood Walk of Fame- and boy let me tell you that this is not at all what I had originally envisioned it to be. To say it has been a rollercoaster of an experience would be an understatement at this point.

On the cusp of my quarter-life-crisis, I feel so grateful to be where I am today. I knew that there would be a roller coaster ride, but I had no idea that this is what it would look like, and I have a very strong feeling that this past 5 years was just the start.

There are some 4 million people living in this city and I honestly could not even tell you how many have moved here to become a star- myself included. Of course we all are scrambling around, all with a completely different yet very similar set of circumstances and dreams.

The one thing that I used to say before I moved here was that you must know that you are just like everyone else, but in that you cannot forget that you are also so unique.

I think that over my past 5 years I may have lost sight of that.

There is this constant fear of how to start, or what to do once you start, or how to keep up with everything going on in all of these entertainment industries while being original and impressive. Your so called calling isn't paying you shit to do any of these passion projects to get you facing in the right direction of agents, mangers, and casting directors that are going to actually get you paid the big bucks and you still have to figure out how the fuck you're going to survive in a city that is way way way too expensive to live in. Oh and did I forget to mention that we are all only human and still must juggle the regular day to day relationships, feelings, emotions, health, blah blah blah blah blah...the list goes on. It's hard. We are all struggling.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that this is a blog is going to be exactly like the blog of every other wanna be star in Los Angeles. The thoughts, ideas, and the "lifestyle" niche of things to appeal to a millennial audience in middle America that ultimately probably really knows what life is all about- the simple things.

xo,

divina